well.....i'm here again... it seemed that i only blog when i want to whine about smth. Firstly, lemme explain why u will usually see my whining post after wed.. the simple reason is becuz my drawing fundamentals is on wed. U see every week we have to do 5 sketches. Then during lesson we will do some drawing and present our sketches to the class at the end of the lesson.

The thing that is making me whine for this week is this issue: i spend the time drawing my sketches... i stayed up till 3 am to complete 5 of my sketches . I know my friend would probably spend most of her time on her sketches so i can't discount that fact. I know i can't compare to her drawing ability but SOMEONE FRICKING EXPLAIN TO ME HOW CAN SHE WITH 3 DRAWINGS GET FULL MARKS ?! i didn't ask for my marks... but come on... it's like mocking me.. WHY THE HELL SHOULD IS SPEND MY TIME DRAWING TILL THE WEE HRS WHEN I PROBABLY WON'T EVEN GET AS GOOD AS HER IN A MILLION YEARS?! i drew 5 of them and i did not even come close to reaching her level. someone tell me why should i even work hard when i can't beat her at all? yes, she's the best drawing student in my class....but in terms of drawing in the class.... i'm ranked at the lower half of my class.... someone seriously tell me why should i continue sacrificing my time when i dun even know if i'm making progress? someone pls tell me why am i placed in this class? I told my friend of this predicament and she said it's good that i'm placed here...so that i would learn to not get depressed easily...but i'm sry friend,i'm alrdy caught in the web of depress...

i know that my classmate is thinking for me when she suggested that i should draw smth simpler for 2DD but still it hurts... it hurts when someone suggest that i should draw smth that doesn't need details becuz i'm a lousy drawer.....
remind me why did i choose this course again?

i'm ranting again.....