hmmm..? i'm back to blog after a depressing last post .__. the reason i'm blogging becuz the two blogs whom i'm following made me realize my readers or my future myself won't be satisfied with my posts.. my blog isn't up to date with my life, my events or my thoughts.. well, not v.up to date for now.. so i'm here to change it..

Poly: recently had been given many 3 week assignments which makes lessons redundant to attend. in fact, i could have stayed at home for today not for jap class.. jap class is fun with moriyama-sensei and i'm determined to continue.. but it shouldn't be on a mon =.= i do hope that jap 102 is taught to me by moriyama sensei again *crosses fingers* my workload is heavy but i'm not crushed by it ..yet.. becuz i'm doing it bit by bit.. but i fear time is running out.. i'm cca-less even if the cca do not count me one... i'm looking for a cca like the ones in sec sch where i belong ,enjoy ,look forward to and it's not juz another torturing experience..non-sports cca are out cuz i'll probably juz fall asleep in wateva talk.. sports cca are limited.. =.= so i'm cca-less for now.. more time to do assignments anyway..

life: life? wat life? i'm chionging my assignments so much that my weekends are burned and the only resemblance to my life is my continued playing of online games each week.. i want the holidays and i wanna go out with miss gwee, netballers, universal studio peeps..... so bad... and i want a haircut tooooo!!!! stupid poly workload...

recent events: hmmm? most recent is the netballuxion carnival ytd at novena.. yea, we sent two teams.. chase and venture.. i'm in chase but i did not contribute much.. but it's alright becuz we got capable teammates.. we didn't get into semis or second round.. we juz played three games and were out cuz we lost one.. venture was great ytd.. but chase is still lacking.. in terms of mentality(?) we are losing to venture.. come on chase, buck up! there's not much i can help until regain and exceed my former self.. which i will with time.. so i guess u small ones got to continue holding on for me.... dear captain.. dun shoulder everything by urself. we( b div ' 09) are there for u whenever u need a listening ear, someone to bully :) , someone to relax, someone to joke around , someone to argue =.= , someone juz to accompany u in silence juz like u have done for us..so pls, dun bear everything by urself.. we are still here for u even if we have separated our ways..hmmm, netballuxion has been the only thing that i'm looking forward to for weeks.. so w/o it, i'm back to a boring life..now only looking forward to the weekly netball trainings in ycs..and holidays.. and a secret event which hopefully we can organise a meeting for it..

netball: instinct is there but reaction time,stamina and agility is missing.. it's not that i'm the top in the three categories but they are the ones that i'm lacking the most.. it frustrates me when the ball flies past me and i know the course but fail to get it becuz i'm a tad slow, too slow to move my legs or simply got shut out by a simple maneuver ...sheesh.. =.= the prev me would probably be laughing at the me now.. i'm missing the trainings when they are two a week or three.. but i dun hv the time to go down... =.= again.. stupid poly timetable.. i think some concept are missing too and there are some bad habits that i have to change.. my passes are lacking strength too.. argh so many things are missing.. but at least i'm in my element.....this may sounds weird but i think ycs is a place where i'm confident about my ability to overcome obstacles for netball la.... strange right? but it might be due to the coaches .. hah.. i dunno but it's not much of a wall to me like the ones in my life.. at least netball ones, i've an idea of how to overcome or at least go around them...i still have tons of things to do and really, i need to have a link to netball where i feel i belong.. unlike the one in np.. i'm not sure is it becuz i feel i dun belong, becuz i've to start out as a newb or becuz it's too tough for me ... but i dun feel like gg for their trainings so i'm giving up netball as a cca in poly....

i want more carnivals pls ._. though i know we need more trainings.. hah..


long post.. oops
(if u aren't miss gwee, i'll appreciate if u dun read this.. )
dear miss gwee, i'm selfish in wanting u to come to me when u need a listening ear, someone to confide or juz talk about ur troubles..when i'm not doing the same to u.. i can't apologize becuz i dun have it in me to seek u for help each time i have troubles becuz i'm too used to solving it on my own and when ic an't then i'll seek for help.... i do miss our long conversations so let's find a day during the holis to go out together the entire day ok? i promise i won't blow it off for wateva reasons.... i do miss the closeness,the talks with u, the company of u and mostly i miss u.... i realise my mistake about the last holiday movie meeting.. i'm v.sorry i got carried away at that time..