Ok... Now for my long and overdue posts... So warning xD Long and emotional(?) post ahead.

Seniors bbq

The thing that stood out the most in my mind got to be the climbing over the fence xD Sorry that we have to climb one.. but it's fun no? Haha... I'm not so sure if I climbed one before ...so it's a nice experience (: Ok... so technically we climbed over two fences for that night .__. But it was fun ^^ Especially with the company :P and we reached there safely :O So it's fine...

I gotta say I'm disappointed. Yes, we might be two different schools. Yes, it might be normal to not mix with each other. Yes, it is never your way to mingle with them. BUT isn't it time to put all the differences aside? Not one of you actually make an effort to mingle with the others. All of you juz rather hide in the chalet =.= Then you all accuse me when I go out -.- I'm seriously pissed off with this attitude of yours. Maybe it's juz play to you and maybe it's juz me who wants to avoid a scene. But now, i'm telling you here. The attitude of accusing me when I go out to mingle, to be with them, seriously suck. No, seriously I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the only one bothered to go out. Maybe if Clara was here, it's a different matter. Maybe, you did something only that I didn't see. Maybe I'm being too hard here. Maybe, those who went earlier did do something and i'm unfairly lumping you together with the rest. Maybe the intention of going there is juz to meet our teammates. But this is my opinion. So dun like? Dun read. No, i'm not talking about one person only...

Haiz... on to more cheerier topic k?


Choice of cosplay
Riza Hawkeye or Lieutenant Hawkeye from Fullmetal Alchemist :D
Yes! This particular and rarely seen outfit xD
Well...*shakes head* I haven't gather anything.. Except for a now-lost-top =.=

I'm doing research for it for ytd though.. Like how does the guns she have look like, as many angle of the harness she's wearing, her headphone , her boots, her pants, the actual colour of the top.. I mean here is black but the next episode it's brown =.=

Going down to the army market tmr as suggested by Bentoh. To rackey :P Will be going after a trip to the Central library (Loves :P)

I chose her becuz Lightning seems too complicated for a beginner, Natsu seems to be the wrong character for me (personality wise) (I mean me? Seducing? O.o) I would like to try them out after trying out Riza though.

Riza is fine enough :D Since she's silently caring and loving.. Loyal..Proper(?).. And now I juz need to find her dog.. LOL

There's no sort-of-deadline. It's more of a gather-and-see-how-then-thing. Hopefully, it will be before AFA next year xD My mum is helping me \o/ Thanks :D

I found out that I'm very suited for Hawkeye. I mean she's 168cm and I'm like... Around there :D (No, I haven't go and measure if I had grown or not xD)

I'm sorry..I thought that it wouldn't happen again but it did. I did promise myself that history won't happen again. That it will never interfere again. But, it seems my promise is broken today. A small victory it was.. getting out of it. But I'm too late.. And I lost the mental war against myself.. After getting out of it, I did not do as well either.. Heck, it was a wrong mistake for being so out of trainings in the first place. But sorry can't change anything.. We lost our chance and ..yes, I'm angry too but what's gone is gone and the only thing we can do now is to learn from it. Not to beat ourselves over it. Still....

If a sorry is all it takes to mend things, there wouldn't be such a word..

I made a schedule.. and is hopefully sticking with it.. wish me luck xD