Hmmm? I suppose I'm here cuz it's the norm to be here at 1/1 of a new year? More specifically 2011. Lols. I had wondered for quite some time on how to start this post for the new year and came out with nothing. So I will be typing it without thinking much about it. So I suppose the length of this post will be quite long. Since I wanna write down how 2010 was and my new year resolution of course xD lemme say first..

Happy NEW year (: !!!

Without further ado, let's start :P
Ps:( I'm gonna go to my past posts for help.. so it's not like I remember everything :O )

2010.. this is how mine pass by....

-Releasing of O lvl results...
What can I say about this? It's been something that I thought it will never arrive. Something that when I was young, I thought that the road to it was 100,200 years away. Something which was not to arrive so soon. Something which is never to be realised. How foolish I was to think that way (:
For one thing, the results and subjects that I took, was something that my younger self would never visualize taking it. I had never wanted to take pure sciences or additional maths.
In fact, I never wanted to get into Yuan Ching or netball. True, I might have loved sports when I'm younger but I never thought that I would have joined a cca and stick with it for so long. Let alone, fell in love with it ^^
I suppose the results marked another milestone in my life and made me ache for the past milestones.
It was also, the beginning of a very very long holiday.

-First day of work.
Well, this is another idea that is foreign to me. I never expected to work till i'm like 20 ? Haha, a child's perception of some matters are strange xD My work, while different, is same in some areas. I always wondered what happens if I actually got accepted for other kind of work. Would I've turn out differently? Nevertheless, I'm grateful for the experience to be the one working. Since it gave me a new experience and new view to everything surrounding me. It made me be more appreciative of the person behind the counter, the person serving, the person who went through many hours to produce something, etc..
Overall, the experience of work is like many other things. Bitter in the middle and sweet in the end. (:

-Getting my laptop( orange)
Yes, my apple laptop is called orange xD Getting a laptop is so different. Now it's like my first choice when I wanna go online. My windows desktop is staying there and gaining dust ._. Having my own laptop also meant that I can access it at any time. Even after 12am which my parents usually dun let me touch the computer :O

-Attending poly: mma.
I can safely say that reality ruins a child's dream. I always had the mistaken notion that poly was more slack, much more easier and basically, it pwns jc. Well, I'm not so sure about the last one. Though, a poly life is so different from what I expected.
I had, and is still having, problems with my course but I'm learning. I'm learning how to cope with my course. I dunno wat to expect in the future. I dunno where is my road. But I know this. I have to make short-term goals.. I can never stop making them. I can never give up. I have to exhaust all the ways before throwing in the towel. I have to stop regretting. Finally, I have to find the motivation/self-discipline. *gives a wry smile*

-Cosplay
Well, I met some of them last year. And decided to start on mine. I shan't put a deadline on myself. I shall struggle and hopefully accomplish it ^^ Riza hawkeye!

-Myself
I grew up. Really, I did. I grew up, quite a lot? It feels so.. anyway. So many things happened in a year. Friendships grew apart. Feelings and suspicions were harbored and secreted away. I grew near to some people. I did not allow myself to form some. I chose to let go some while some flew out of my grasp even though I tried so hard to hold on to them. My eyes were opened to many things that I originally did not see. I learnt many hard lessons. I gained many wonderful memories. I tried many new things. I failed and succeeded in others. I suppose I can proudly say, I'm beginning to learn myself. Yes, as strangely as that sounds. I hate and love some of my traits. I changed some,stubbornly kept some,lost some and can't get rid of some.I'm also interested to see the changes that another year will bring ^^

-Netball
I left this for the last becuz this year.. for this category/section, many changes occurred. Sigh.. where to begin? I suppose I can begin at the disappearance for I lost track of how many months of training. It was bad enough that I could not attend due to O levels but I also abandoned it when O levels were finished.. Seriously, what was i doing? I knew in this area, I was answering to no one else but me. (Knew. Since it was before joining the club) But how could I shirk the duty and responsibility, I can't remember the reason.
As if it wasn't bad enough, I still went on and selfishly signed up for the first club carnival.. Ah,I shan't rack up that experience. It will never be forgotten but I dun feel like explaining it any further in here.
I suppose I learnt much this year too. Less regarding concept and more regarding people and myself. Like how can I cope when my reactions are not that fast. Using more of thinking wise rather then running more I suppose. It does have it's good uses and bad ... Like when I abuse it too much..
I always get setback-ed when I did not attend training for a period of time and it sucks when I managed to get back to my skill level then the period of time comes back and my skill level drops again..
Heck, I haven't even reached my former level.. This sucks =.=
My team,Chase, played finish the last match for the PwC year end league ytd. Thanks to all my teammates for your hard work, tolerance and patience (: Big thanks to the captains, Elisha and Yiwei (:
I suppose, I hope that a new year would bring better performance from me, more fun when playing, more opponents, more chance to play, more communication between me and my defender or wateva position I'll be playing, lesser upsets, lesser losses and basically, the chance to keep playing this sport :P


New year resolutions time~

First, a review :D *goes off to search for past resolutions*

  1. take better care of my gum..lols(my gum seems to be sunken or smth..) I dun think so .. I'm still kinda not caring for it. Not fulfilled
  2. hit level 100 for maple character(long way to go..)I'm like, level 76.. LOL. Not fulfilled
  3. Enjoy my course no matter wat i choose. Enjoy? No.. but i'm trying to find the ways to enjoy it. Half- fulfilled
  4. roughly know wat do i want to do(rather lost now) Set short term goals, have a rough plan for the rest of the semester. Year 2 I'll make plans once the result is known (: Fulfilled
  5. improve my skills of gunz ^^ I forgot what I had initially, but I master rs about 70%, hs about 80%, am comfortable with one pistol and one shotgun. So yes, Fulfilled.
  6. learn something new (besides the things that i have to learn) Yep.. Definitely, besides the hol workshop, i'm learning how to be a better author and learning how to colour digitally (: Thus, Fulfilled.
  7. keep in contact with secondary sch frens ^^ Some friends I did keep contact so.. Half-Fulfilled (:
  8. make new friends ^^ lols Yea, I did make some I guess...Not as close as I would've liked.. but it's alright (: Half-Fulfilled.
  9. make my blog more active(?) lols I did try T^T Not Fulfilled :(
  10. finish things that i start I definitely threw aside more half-done work then ever. Not Fulfilled :(
Well, the list ain't that bad... 4/10 not fulfilled. 3/10 half-fulfilled and 3/10 fulfilled. I will work harder (: Here are the new ones...
  1. Improve my gunz skills (: I wanna learn to do a proper bf and hopefully master rs.
  2. Get into digital animation route. Try all means
  3. Cosplay as Riza Hawkeye before 2012 !
  4. Exceed/reach my previous skill level in Netball and be better .
  5. Don't lose myself, only improve.
  6. Keep in touch with ycs netballers '09
  7. Finish some of my stories. I currently have 4 of them not completed. (felix's past, Robin's, cindyrella and makino.)
  8. Improve my human anatomy ._.
  9. get and play FFXIII
  10. Improve my drawing and self-confidence in it.
  11. Try to temper my procrastination.
  12. Sleep earlier when I can't do anymore work.
Maybe I should add in don't fall down before new year xD Since i fell two days ago, tripped over kaiwei's legs ._. It's hurting me now.. skinned wounds still hurt T^T And it's been months since I get any flesh wounds ._.

Woah.. LENGTHY post indeed. Take your time and read.. since it'll be some time before the next update (: